Letting go: learning to take care of yourself and the only chocolate chip cookie recipe you will ever need!!!!!

Shirt (R W & Co). Jeans (Gap). Shoes (Aldo).

This is what I wore today. This is a big deal for me, because I’ve literally been wearing pj’s and Lululemon since Monday. Today was the first day I put on makeup, did my hair and dressed up. So why the big deal?

It all started last Saturday when I woke up with some chest pain.  It felt like I needed to crack my chest.  The pain continued and worsened by Sunday morning. Stubbornly I went to work. The pain got worse through out the day. With much encouragement from my co-workers, I finally took some Ibuprophen (didn’t do anything). By the end of my 12 hr shift, I could barely move without feeling like an elephant was sitting on my chest. Thank goodness for my amazing and very persistent co-workers, I finally went down to the ER to get checked out. They were amazing. I had a chest x-ray, blood work drawn and an ECG done very quickly. My ECG showed that I had Pericarditis. Pericarditis is the inflammation of the sac that surrounds the heart. What causes it? A virus. My first question was how could a healthy 33 yr old, active, non smoking woman get it? The ER doctor said I could have caught it from a virus my son had. He happened to be sick on Saturday. It could also be related to the hand and foot disease that kids get.

The good news is that I didn’t need any antibiotics, didn’t need to be admitted, and that according to the doctor, 95 % of these cases are benign. I was totally terrified when he first told me, and to be quite honest, I’m still worried that this infection might cause some damage to my heart. I have a follow up doctor’s appt. tomorrow and an echo on Sunday. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that everything will be okay, and that my heart has not been damaged. I have been told to rest, take my pain meds and let others take care of me. If you know me, staying still and letting others take care of me is very difficult. I don’t sit still EVER!!!! But for my health’ s sake and for my family, I am following doctor’s orders.

This blog was actually my husband’s idea. He knows how hard it is for me to sit around and let people take care of me. But I believe that this is God’s and the universe’s way of telling me to slow down. We get so caught up in this rat race, we forget to take time for ourselves. I know how I get so caught up in looking after everyone else that I forget to look after me. I think my biggest problem is taking time to slow down. I feel like I don’t have time to slow down because life is so busy and fast.So I am listening. I am trying to be a good patient. I have literally done nothing since Sunday but let people take care of me. I am catching up on my tv shows, reading and much needed sleep, I tire easily. I have the two best nurses anyone could ever ask. My son has been amazing through all of this. He understands that Mama’s chest is sore and that he has to take it easy on me. We still get our snuggle time with each other. It’s been good for my husband and him to spend more time together.

So here is what I’ve learned:

  • Pericarditis sucks. It hurts like hell. Its scary. It can happen to anyone, including someone healthy.
  • Although it is hard to do, the best thing to do is to let go. Let others help you. Give yourself a break.
  • The importance of slowing down, and taking time to breath and relax. I know that in the future, I will take more time for myself.
  • Go to the doctor and get checked out, don’t be stubborn!!!
  • Who your real friends are. Who are the people in your life who will step up to the plate and help you without having to be asked.

The lesson learned here is to slow down and enjoy your life, because you never know when life will take a crazy turn. In my case, I was very lucky and hopefully I won’t have any residual effects from the inflammation. The only thing I can do now is to have positive thinking, and imagine, as my husband described it to me, Lego men fighting off the dragons on my Pericardium. Each night, I imagine the Lego men fighting off the evil dragons and making me better. I know its corny but I’m willing to do anything to get myself better, plus it puts a smile on my face :)

I probably won’t post anything until next week. I am working on some great fashion ideas for my blogs once I’m better. I’m hoping my husband can go back to work on Monday. The doctor did mention that it could take between 2-8 weeks to fully recover. I kindly told him that I don’t have 8 weeks, so lets hope its only 2 :)

Below is my absolute favorite chocolate chip recipe. Its quick, easy and taste heavenly. My son loves, loves, loves to bake chocolate chip cookies with me. I can’t wait to bake some with him after I have healed.

  • 2 1/4 cups of flours
  • 1/2 tsp of baking soda
  • 1 cup of butter
  • 1/4 cup of sugar
  • 1/2 cup of brown sugar
  • 2 tsp vanilla
  • 2 large eggs
  • 2 cups of dark chocolate chips

Bake at 350 degrees for 8-10 mins. They will be gooey when you take them out and stay gooey. I love soft, melt in your mouth chocolate chip cookies.

Below is a picture of my son and I baking chocolate chip cookies for the first time together a few months ago.

May this blog inspire you to slow down, take time for yourself, help someone in your life if they are going through something, and bake some chocolate chip cookies. I hope you enjoy the cookies as much as my family and I do.

Happy Thursday Everyone!!!!

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